Time with God – Jeremiah 2 & 3 & Joel 2

30 12 2010

This morning I got up and did the normal very, very first things…for us, that’s letting the dogs out (and cats in) the house. Then it’s coffee or breakfast or whatever. Sometimes I watch a bit of t.v. like the news or poke around the Christian channels (unfortunately, there are many programs I can no longer stomach.) It depends on what time we get up since we work at home, we often go to bed really late (or early in the a.m., depending on how you look at it.)

Today, however, I felt the strong need to go back into my room and really, really seek the Lord. To tune out all distractions and just focus on Him. I started with worship songs but there came a point where I felt I was to turn those off, get on my knees by the side of the bed and just “enter in.”

I did and I arrived at a place where I felt it was just me and God. Almost like a cave in the heavens, with a bit of an echo but no real walls or anything, just this small, darkish ethereal place.  I poured out my heart, my love, my confusion and doubt about the church’s teachings, my concerns about the apostasy and I also poured out my worship.

All in my head, just giving all of my insides to Him. I said to Him (as I have many other times in my life) that I’m not sure how to truly approach Him…the Living GOD, the very creator of the Universe and how empty the “typical” praise words sound to my own ears at times.

(You know the times in church where the worship pastor stops and says, “just pour out your hearts to him, tell Him how you love him?” We all dutifully say things like: “I love you Lord, you are the most high God, we worship and adore you, you are King of Kings and Lord of Lords”, etc., etc.)

But when I do it in prayer, sometimes they sound like “just words” and I long for something else, something deeper, something more.

Today I found it and I climbed into my father’s lap and experienced complete communion and peace with Him.  He spoke to me and held me and loved me.  It was wonderful. 

(Why, oh WHY do I ever resist time with God?  I know we all do it and yeah, we all know the enemy wants us to stay too busy and hates our prayer life BUT why do we EVER go along with not spending time with God?  Like what, are we stupid?  How ELSE can we get connected, refilled and directed!)

He gave me Jeremiah 3:2 and Joel 2:22 in my head as I ended this wonderful prayer / communion time. (It’s very rare for me to hear scriptures to look up in my head…usually I just ask the Lord to show me something, which He has always been faithful to do since 1987 or I’m just simply studying the bible or a specific subject.)  I looked them up and then did as I usually do, read the surrounding scriptures for context

Surprise, surprise!  They’re both about judgement, restoration and the end time/Day of the Lord.

In Jeremiah 2 & 3, I found God admonishing Israel and charging them will all their sins, wrongdoings and idol worship and His offer for them to (yet again) turn away and return to Him.

He is very specific about Ba’al worship and His complete fury regarding it.  So I looked up what it is.   Chld sacrifice, sexual immorality, drunkeness, gluttony and worship of the heavenly hosts are some of the things involved.  Whoa.  I’m not involved in any of those (although I was raised on astrology and I know I still mentally calculate someone’s birth sign…I suspect I’m being told to guard my mind and not let any of that into my life AT ALL.) 

I’ve laid down the other things involved in that type of worship as well…don’t drink alcohol any more, walk in celibacy since I’m not married and never did have a problem with gluttony (and obviously haven’t ever thrown any children into the fire.)

So I look at it and think:  “Message for America” since so much New Age stuff has crept into today’s churches (post I’ll put on my other blog, Christians Get Ready.)

But wait, then I think:  “What kind of stuff is on the t.v.?  Is watching the highly sexually charged t.v. shows that abound in America today part of it?”  Yes, it is. 

Is going nuts at the mall or on Ebay buying stuff a form of gluttony?  Yes, it is.  It’s not just food (and it seems to me that the only “allowable sin” in churches today is over eating.)

Can we be drunk on other things besides alcohol?  Yes, we can.  Power.  Success.  Fame.  Material possessions.  Fill in the blank.

Do we sacrifice our children today?  How about by neglecting them…working two jobs so we can have nicer material possessions?  Are latch-key kids being sacrificed to television, online chat rooms (where predators DO lie in wait) and other “modern” conveniences that babysit them while we work so hard? 

Hmmmm, worth considering.

Regarding Joel 2:22 (and surrounding verses) I came to the conclusion that I’ve used that verse for YEARS pointing to why the Spirit is being poured out on churches (I’ve been in ‘Spirit filled’ churches for the most part along with Baptist…talk about differing views on what Scripture says and means!) I have heard that preached and so have looked at Joel 2:28-32 for years because it is pointed to as part of prophecy for today’s church (Spirit-Filled, Evangelical circles I mean…certainly not in the Baptist churches we’ve gone to…they don’t believe in ANY of the gifts.)

Well, this is part of the doubts I’m having now since the whole idea of the Pre-Trib rapture, 7 church ages, and “end times” prophecies may be all part of what “itching ears want to hear.”

Today I look and I see that I have been ignoring the words that START Joel 2:28 “And afterward.” Um, kinda like saying “resist the devil and he must flee” ignoring the FIRST part which says “submit yourselves to God.”

“And afterward” means after something that hasn’t happened yet! We know that Jesus sent the Holy Spirit to us AFTER His death and resurrection so we have to conclude that God meant the Joel scriptures NOT to have been about that time but must instead refer to future times (since the Great Day of the Lord has not occured yet.)

So does that mean that all the “stuff” going on in today’s Evangelical / Spirit Filled churches contains much not from God? It’s a huge possibility and my whole belief system and world is really rocking right now!

I have ONE thing to stand on: God. I trust Him, I know He IS faithful and I know He’ll tell me the true path.

I have one goal in life and that’s to hear: “Well done, good and faithful servant.” So I need to stay tucked under His wing, commune constantly with Him, serve where He tells me to serve and walk in the way He wants me to walk.

I do believe the gifts are still in operation today but I will be very selective about taking preaching at face value. I want the WHOLE COUNSEL of the Lord, not just bits and pieces taken out of context in order to fit my (man’s) ideas and beliefs. I want TRUTH, straight up with no chaser!




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